I breathe IN then OUT..

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

I miss math lesson and Lucky i miss it cause i forgot to bring my maths notebook and surely Mr Joel Chia will be mad.. So hurray Angklung, which i played during recess. so call our performances and also for us to get ready for SYF. Even thought we play it nicely but not smoothly but i know we can do our best.. Some of them are disappointed cause no ones look at us or giving us support. we are freaking mad but we still play and imagine there's some one looking at us, cheering for us.. Wow, that's going be great.. But there are also some band's member who are cheering for us.. "thank you thank you".. and i love you people.. I would like to be good friends with our next door classmate, i hate to be figthing and hating people.. Yeah, i like to admit that i hate you once for some stupid childish reason and i know you hate us too.. so im so sorry.. so no no being a bad girl shidah or a stupid one..

So i move on.. maybe everyone should.. hahaha.. if you think you hate your life, change it while you can.. like me.. see maybe im happy with my own decicion. MAKE IT REAL like what me, farrah, hafiz & maybe shahrin once said..

Urgh, i can't stop thinking of yesterday. which i had fun and also something wrong with me.. I told the teacher about aida's short skirt.. I think I'm jealous of her.. I know i being so childish. But i can't help it.. The word come out by itself and that freaking smile which its look so evils. eww, i hate it.. i think I'm going be nice to her tomorrow. Maybe (:

And i love PDM. Which i always have fun doing it and also laughing with anis and that Bastard.. Haha, his name is YJ lah..he called me a bitch.. so that's why i'm calling him bastard or maybe asshole.. But i think bastard uh.. But this all jk jk only.. i know his not serious. cause i can't be a bitch.. But if i'm really really a bitch, i am one super duper friendly bitch..

and yeah-yeah. i brought my math assessment book already. and i immediately went back home and try some sums out..

anw if you wanna see my Genting pictures.. Click at my Sister's Multiply... So enjoy :D

So lets end it with an I love you and I'm sorry..

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Shidah Yaw

6:52 PM

Sunday, March 29, 2009

I'm scare of NA FA test. The only thing i know i can do it is Shutter run. I love running but just lazy to run.. I know i will get B for my shutter run and I'm very confident but don't over confident okey, shidah.. So hope tomorrow just a try out for NA FA again.. And i hope that guy will come to school.. So he will save me again at PDM class..
Now i'm bored. Doing nothing is a no no to me.. i really must do something and blogging does not work. but chatting with linda really make me think hard but still not working.. So now currently watching Fred at YouTube.. His very cute.. He is acting like a 8 years old boy.. I watched already count-less time.. so if i like you surely like it too.. But the real him is not like this, he just acting okay..

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Shidah Yaw

1:39 PM

I didn't buy my new red dairy and math assessment book.. Freaking mad at it..

I love watching ToGetHer, Taiwan movie at channel U.. its every Saturday, 9.30pm.. This is the second time i miss the starting cause every Saturday i went out then reach home around 9.50, so boohoo miss it..

So tomorrow, must study Science and other subject.. Shidah, you can do it.. I know i can.. Su, stupid stupid you, you let me remember that Yesterday(Friday) is not a bad dream and its real.. I'm scared.. and i don't want it to happens. i have enough of getting hurt.. So please let me forget that freaking day.. See i love saying "Freaking".. It a very nice word to say..

urgh, i'm tried. so better sleep.. yeah, i must sleep.

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Shidah Yaw

12:28 AM

Saturday, March 28, 2009

I think i should forget about yesterday.. Just think yesterday never happened.. and thank Linda, Anis, Nurul, Su, Farrah and maybe AIDA for making me happy and sad at both time.. and also sorry if i hurt you all before and also sorry if yesterday i acted like a ass girl.. I don't know what happened to me. It felt that i almost losing everything. and hope that i would never lose you all. And if anything happened to me, would you be there for me? would you lend me your shoulder? wish yesh.
and I'm smiling again..
and maybe my song will be finish, hope it will be nice to hear.. Haha, i love singing.
am i to dramatic? I think yesh.. I over react if something not right.. Freaking right.. ;D

anw today, i going to buy a new math assessment book and red new dairy.. love it.. I'm going to work hard on my exam this coming April, i think.. So if you see me not smiling at you, it does not mean i'm not friendly but stress over my studies cause it seems that i can't think well cause somethings bothering me, somethings that make me felt unwell..
so tatata people. i going to shoopping !!

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Shidah Yaw

1:18 PM

Friday, March 27, 2009

Why must i know the Truth today?

Im freaking sad to hear that Long story where he look at her and what so ever.. I just have to accept it right. and what can i do? i can't do anything. I just have to stup up and accept life.. I hate today, i hate life.. Why must it be unfare and i want it to be perfect and to be what i wanted it to be.. but it always never be.. DAMN freaking. and shit i got eye bags.. very big ones.. back to that topic.. Must i hate her for liking him? and does she like him? but i surely know he like her.. What so great about that girl.. she not even clever and what so ever.. She just have a pretty face.. urgh.. Shidah stop it.. don't be over just because of this.. She still my friend.. Just cool down.. Think about things that i like, things that i love, things that make me happy..

I just finish watching Radit love Jani.. i like that movie. so Sweet and it have an unexpected ending. and i cry went he leave her cause he does't want her to get hurt.. I cry and i love that movie.. Urgh, i just love indonesia movie when it comes to love and sad part... i wish my life is like that but to bad its just a movie.. but my life is more execiting.. Maybe i can make a movie about my life.. Yeah, that gonna be cool..

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Shidah Yaw

9:01 PM

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Yeah, yesterday i got to played bowling and firstly i sucked at it then suddenly whose, i played like an expert.. hahaha, like real. i'm learning to play it and wee i finally played it seriouly.. no i laugh went it went to the Lonkang(?) or what people call it.. And went it hit the Pins, i shouted and smiling at myself.. I know macam orang giler ehk.. ((:

Now i love playing Bowling and i wanna play some more.. Kakak & Iksan & duh me wanna played Archire but when we went down the place close aready, damn.. Cause it's too late and it aready 8 something o'clock.. i think the place close at around 7..

Then before We went back, we all ate at the nearest Makan place.. Yummy and i think i put on weight.. Shit, but it's okay..

And today went to Nyayi's house for Father's side Family Gathering.. And also got many many yummy food.. So i just enjoy eating and playing with my small cousin and big cousin.. Wow, i love them all.. Really :D

and jyeah!! tomorrow school reopen. and boohoo my stress will come back again.. i'm so fed up lah.. i hate school but sometimes i love school and sometimes i blank.. and i wanna perm my hair and faster faster hair grow long grow long so i can perm my hair.. and i wanna cut my fringe, i wanna cut bangs(?) and always when i wanna cut bangs(?) selalu the auntie cut wrongly,i hate you auntie!! hahaha... (:

shit!! now my hair suck. please god make my hair pretty, make it long.. *smiling at myself*

Every day and Every night I wish you could understand me..

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Shidah Yaw

8:11 PM

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Genting was Amazing & Great.. the temperature was cooling and cold.. The people was okey... And i think everything was okey and i love it over there.. Wish i could stay there a little bit long but we went back Thursday morning and reached home almost going to midnight, whoose Tried.... And the bas ride was freaking boring, i just watched Chinese drama at the tv and that drama was okey and i pretty enjoy watching it, sleep alot since we can adjust the sit and read my Cleo magazine.. I like the M.A.C Hello Kitty make-up, i wish i got to buy that make-up.. It's so nice and i Love Hello Kitty..
We played indoor and outdoor activity.. We played until 12 midnight and we took allot of picture.. and i really had fun over there.. Luckly it did't rain like last year, and this year it was sunny and cold..
I & Sis brought Adidas's Sling bag, Mine dark blue and hers red AND many Delicious food.. Yeah, i eat allot.. Really allot.. Cause the food is very yummy.. Mum brought again this handbag from CarloRino and also many many souvenir and dad did't brought anything, he just follows us anywhere we want to go and help carrying it.. See my father is very strong and have a good heart like me.. (:
I really like that high waist skirt from MANGO and that Shade from CarloRino but i did't get to buy it.. Damn right.. It's okey, i could try finding these item at Singapore.. My homeland.. And i would like find and after that buy this demin overall which i think at forever 21.. and i would be the happiest girl ever cause i get that demin overall.. If you saw it, you surely want to buy it.. Cause i saw it and i wanna buy it, soo must save money or must beg/ask for money...
i can't stop giggling when i remember how wonderful life is..

school is gonna be reopened on Monday which is the day after today night and tomorrow. and I'm not prepared for anything and also my english project which i think i did't work that hard on it but i'm still trying and hope joyce,Yuan Jian & Tin Sum will turn up and help me breathe slowly and i want to score excellent in everything but i can't and i always do mistake and scared learning from it. I'm scared of everything but i still wanna tried and not to give up quickly. (:
:D
:D
i'm tried
sp good night human

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Shidah Yaw

11:26 PM

Sunday, March 15, 2009

should i have my own private blog??

No, that will be not gerek..

and i dare to put about life and people i hate in here but

i just don't like being rude or whatsnot..

so i just wrote this too you.. not you you i mean that person..

and yah, i don't dare to put her/his name cause they have feeling and they maybe want their privacy..

so enjoy it..

Sorry If I grab your sentences but is this for me.. I like to said something.. You might not be straight-forward, meaning what? I quite don’t understand.. I’m different now? Like how? Please describe it properly to me. Cause I like to know, beloved friend.. Yah, I did said I want to grow up & think big.. so what am I doing now, thinking small ehk? And I think im growing but but I still wanna keep the childish side of me cause I’m still young and I love being a kid and there’s always a kid in you too okay.. and about that guy, who told you uh, I know it must be our kind friend, (I don’t want to put her name) yah, it’s a gurl.. if not for that gurl, would you know all of this. If salah paisey ehk babe.. but it’s okey, cause everyone makes mistake pe.. What if I like him now, but I do not felt comfortable with it because when you saw him you will be look at me with that face.. That kampong face.. hahaha.. Really love that word.. and I know you will be complaining to your friend saying this and that, if you’re not complaining you must a lease talk about me.. and im right about it.. cuase you did talk about me.. Don’t worry gurl, I also did talk about you.. but not that serious uh. Just childish behavior and childish talking.. ((:
I know I like him but It also because of you but hack care ehk gurl.. aku pun tk kesah lah kalau ko nk benci aku psl ni.. but seriously I would like to say I’m trying to stop liking him and move now pe lah, tak caye tu ko yer pasal lah.. Cause ini kau pe, I know what im doing, but maybe I’m not. But whatever back to that subject.. Yah, I did asked for his number but I never said that to him and you think what I dare saying that to him.. noo I would not to that.. tu pun kawan kita yg mintak number budak dier.. but aku tk der mintak number dier agie pe cuase i dah lose hope like you lose hope.. (klau tk fhm, tk kesah.) anw can you just kept it low. and u think i have time too mgs mgs bdk tk cukup umur tu and bkn aku suke dier pe.. and why must name aku klaur dulu menatng mentang aku mgs dier, name aku kluar uh.. yah , i did mgs him but that cause of my friend pe.. what kind of friend i am if aku tk tolong sama kawan-kawan aku.. HAIYOO. aku famous uh, nantie.. bagus bagus aku suke.. puihh uh.. but hack care uh.. whatever you going to say about me. go lah.. but i know you have your own life, so live you own freaking good live and i live with mine.. cause that's my buisness okey.. and i like make this to the end.. Reaaly, i hate being bad and i hate talking bad stuff and whatever bad people doo. cause im not that kind of person, i'm a good self-centre(?) kind-hearted and friendly gurl.. and did't mean people asked for your number mean i crazy in love with you... it mean "hello, im friendly. and i would like to know more about you" or "Hello, and nice knowing you" okey people.

cause I’m a shy gurl.. yah, that’s the OLD me, shy and scared fighting for my right.. but you know,now and dulu semua sama, I’m still Siti Noorashidah pe.. But just a little bit different uh.. Yah I must admit I’m different but Im still me.. See, I’m over reacting.. And I hate being so Over, cuase it’s too drama-mama… BUT i still love you kae, shayang.. ttfn-

Shidah Yaw

8:21 PM

Yeah, that's my sister !!

Siti Noorashikin (: a.k.a Maya ;P

Ex-Hong Kah student and now she's we be studying in Temasek Polytechnic

See i'm proud at my one and only sister ... Who will not be proud at your own clever sister.. Cause i am and you should be too... She's Smarter then me but i'm better then her.. Muahahaha Muahahaha..

I always take care of her and yah she take care of me too.. But i don't know why i always act that im bigger then her and she always act like a small girl.. wait, i know why she act like that cause she going be 20 in 2 years time.. Hahaha, kakak dah tue... bluek ;p and i'm stil young... Hurray !!

but sometime she's fierce and scary looking but still I LOVE HER.. hahaha, cheh cheh..

and she talented, you know.. and i'm talented too.. hahaha.. She played the guitar while i do all the singing.. wee, we going be famous.. hahahaha. funny ehk.. but sweet pe.. The "ss" Sister.. Cool ehK?

Soo when i, i mean we going be famous.. i will like to thank our parent and our friends and family.. yeah, wake up wake up shidah..

and now im excited cause tomorrow i will be going GENTING !!

must wake up early tomorrow cause must be at the bas place at 7 something i think..

and thank linda for that jacket of your.. will be returning soon as possible okey shayang... and guys make sure you don't fight when im gone and enjoy the day camp and your holiday.. weee..

and Have a nice day okey.. LOVE you people many many...

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Shidah Yaw

6:44 PM

Friday, March 13, 2009

The thruth is I'm done pretending

I'm stress out with EBS project, English project and Science test and the date line is opening of school .. Whoo.. and i think i'm the only person in my group who cares about it and want to scored better marks.. But i'm confident that i can do it all by myself but please help me kae.. cause i'm freaking out and when i freaking out i can't think..! Shit.. and Jyeah, i will be going to Genting Highlands on Monday morning.. Wee, im so excited but firstly i must finish my project first before i can go enjoy.. So hopefully on Friday on any day i will ask you guys to come to my house or anyones house to finish our project.. Just bare with me and we will be finish it and present it with pride.. cheh, macam paham ehk aku ni..

And i haven't finish my song yet.. but i found the prefect tempo. fake... hahaha. I still not yet decide.. And i'm sick, running nose really irritated.. I used 6 Packed of Tissue paper and 1 big boxes of tissue paper and i still not feeling well.. i need to be well so i can enjoy the Holidays.. Mummy said just rest and drink plenty of mineral water.. but here i'm blogging and typing words with the keyboard of mine laptop.. and i want to drink Cold Milo but i'm freezing in my room and i want hot water but my throat is killing me.. It's really really killing me.. PLEASE be my hero and save me from this pain and sickness.. cause it's killing me step by step..

anw i'm wanna say thank you for all sweet people who always make my day shine and sorry to the people i have hurt before and who misunderstood me.. Hehehe, see i'm so kind-hearted..
i need to think right now, thinking of words that can be in my song, words that describe the person and life..

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Shidah Yaw

6:44 PM

Thursday, March 12, 2009

i love you guys many many (:

I wrote a song and it's for a guy who i always saw everyday, i mean every Monday to Friday.. He's unique in his own way. i think cause i barely know him and we barely talk to each other.. So this song is what i think of that guy..

Every time i walked near your class

Saw you

Standing outside your classroom

with that face once i saw you staring blanking at me

We never talk or smile cause we barely know each other

So its gonna take time

for me to be your friend..

i haven't yet finish the whole song cause i still thinking for the other part, i mean the course.. So when im done.. i try singing it to my friends, so wish it will be one great song..

and that guy, you should be proud that i wrote a song for you not for you i mean about you.. yah about you.. thank ehk for giving me idea...

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Shidah Yaw

7:51 PM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I said "Whatever happened to you?

It's been two years where have you been?"

And I guess all my fears were true

The words are all gone

The times been too long

It's not too late to say"Sorry to a friend"

I just love every single day, laughing :D

Shidah Yaw

6:16 PM

Monday, March 9, 2009

*Just ignore my stupid face okay*

Yuan Jian, why did you absent urself from school today urh? i had difficulties in school, during PDM today.. You're the only one that can save me. I can said that you're my hero. Cheh, no lah. too bad yor not.. hehehehe

Shidah Yaw

8:18 PM

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Yesterday went to Nenek’s house for Family Gathering.. Wee, I love family gathering cause I got to spent my whole attired day with my sweet/gerek cousin and my two adorable toddler..
We ate and we talked about every things that happened in life.. I had fun of course.. and i spooked with my two toddler and I asked them what’s the shape of the bowl, and I teach them 1,2,3 and so oon .. They grown so fast and they are very clever and also active little children.. and now I miss them.. I miss kissing them, I miss hugging them and I miss talking to them.. aww, they are one small cute children..

And Today, which I always spent my time at home.. Watching DVDs, surfing the net, Singing while my sister played the guitar and now I’m blogging.. Woo, Im bored.
I could died because of this.. I want to go out, I want to go to the gym to lose all my fatness, I want to go out to the library to study.. but I can’t.. my mum don’t let me.. hey, im big already, I can make my own decision. You know! Lucky Linda still mgs me so I got someone to complain and share secret with.

Wee, tomorrow I’m going to school.. yeah, I can at lease talk to my friends and also study and screaming at Syukuri.. I love doing that cause I don’t why but I just love it but I doing it cause he’s asking for it not that I’m a rude girl but just he always disturb me and I get frustrated so I scream at him...... wee, I’m gonna be happy. Hopefully I’m going to be happy. Please don’t make me freak out cause I hate freaking out, it makes me look horrible/terrible and sometimes I love laughing at stupid lame jokes and even thought I don’t understand it, I just laugh. You will always see me laughing for no reason… and it does not mean that I’m crazy but I’m just too happy...

And at last Linda online.. so now im chatting with her.. wee, we talk about boys talk about this and that.. gerek you know. And that’s why I love her soo much.. and I don’t know why I love to used and Gerek and the word love..
You know what.. My sister called me Mariam, and she thinks that I’m her personal maid.. Giler yer kakak.. I’m your sister okey and I’m not your maid.. but its fun acting like one. Hahaha. I know you will never understand my life..
Linda: Good Job finding his Friendster. And I have fun looking at his photo.. hahaha, the face very “cute”.. ouh my, that rude right.. stop stop being rude..
Now I feel like singing, soo what song should I sing??
And I love singing.. I always pretend that i am singing in front of a thousands people.. whoo, that will be scary.. and it will never going to happened cause I not that brave.. but I wish that I can do it cause I want to show off that I like singing.. Hahaha. Mepek.. I know..

And now I’m craving for Chocolate & bubble tea & also green tea & apple tea..
And I wanna try the new Kinder Joy.. I bet its yummy..
So if you’re a kind-hearted girl/boy, please buy for me.. hahaha, tak tahu malu yer pnpm..
But it’s okey.. Tomorrow I will be buying all of that.. Yah Linda… If besok I never buy That chocolate I will cry.. Cause Chocolates make me Happy..
I’m crazy over Chocolate and that’s why my face have Pimples.. hehehe.. Disgusting right.. but im making an effort to make them disappear. Like Magic..
And Im not that sleepy but my mum asked me to go to bed.. See tomorrow I have PE and I will be very active and I hate running, no I love running but im tried of running.. yah, that’s correct.. and then after school I have CCA “Angklung” Start at 2.30 finish at 6 something I think.. I love my CCA but I hate the people over there. No lah… I only jk jk. No fun if there no joke right.. And Taran will always said this. “You know I joke” Cute right.. but the person not cute but Gerek.. I love everyone in my class.. And I love Rahmat and Hasmir.. I told my secret to them.. wait I mean love as a friends not love as that love.. Ouh no, I think I need to do something but I just can’t remember what the things.. Ouh well, lets just forget about it..

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Shidah Yaw

9:21 PM

Friday, March 6, 2009

I have been thinking all these days that am i someone to you?

all these day we just look but never smile, why?

am i disgusting or ?

i really tried but i wanna watch this Ghost Movie at Channel 8 and the show start at around 11 something..and i must not sleep..and i heard a lot people said that, that movie is quite scary so i wanna watch it.. Wee~ i just love scary movie!! do you love scary movie?

I know, Shidah Grow up and think big ... Chatting with linda is so the Gerek.. Yok belakun same sama agie.. i really don't know what to talk/type anymore, so i stop here kae darlink..

and tomorow going to Grandmother's house.. "Family Gathering" Haiyoo, mesti ada bayak makanan uh.. Gemuk lah..

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Shidah Yaw

9:58 PM

i really wish i could tell you the truth but I'm just too scared.

So i better shut up and kept on hiding..

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Shidah Yaw

6:16 PM

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Im changing

so better be thankful

Soorry linda for what just happened at school just now. Im really sorry but im thankful that you are my friend and you said that your were not mad at me.. So you already knows who is "Rashiq" & "Aciq" right? so its gonna be awkward when i'm going to talk about him, i mean them.. But if you felt angry or what so ever just tell me kae, friend ((;

And now i'm singing every old new what so ever song that i knew and i don't know why im so happy.. Is it because of life..?? or people around me?? argh!!

I wish i can be brave to sing in front of Thousand of people but i can't.. im not afraid to let people hear my voice but im scared of people laughing and saying things about it.. But i love my voice, you know.

anw Joyce giler gurl, i really have fun dancing Cha Cha with you.. and if you people saying that me & my amazing friends and also best best girlfriends are crazy or lame or what so ever you are thinking of, you are wrong.. Kita gerek oi.. and we always remember to have fun and laugh our ass off(?).. hahahaha.. Im over and so dramatic.

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Shidah Yaw

8:03 PM

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Happy Birthday Hafiz!!

My irritating nice handsome friend (:

hahaha..

Chey Hafiz big boy already and ingat Jangan nottie nottie taw...

And hope you will success in the future.

So school was per normal..
Having fun talking with Rahmat and Hasmir.. And Rahmat biler ko nk kasi aku number dier.. hahaha, i must be patient right..
and Aida don't be sad and just forgive him okey..
and i think today i laugh alot with Aida.. Yurp, we a bit crazy
:D
I think u'r a loser cause you kept runing away from your mistake.. and gurl don't asked you friends too look at me like im in the wrong okay, i don't want to make problem cause i hate fighting and hating you..and i want to be friendly so stop it okay... and you can have that guy, i don't want him anymore..
Fake

i want everything to be perfect,
i want everything to be just the way im want it to be..
but its always turns out to be the opposite way..

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Shidah Yaw

4:03 PM

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Hello people (:
Yesterday went out to watch Kude Kempang(?) near boon lay, with my 4 beeutiful people...
The other 2 beeutiful people, Anisah and Farrah could not follow cause of family reason..
So i bare with it and still haed on with our plan..
I saw some similar faces but i act like i don't recognise them, hahah i know. Sombong!!
I'm friendly but it was so hoot over there and i can't stand it so i lazy to smile and i know they will also act act tk kenal.. Meyampah(?) aku!!

Now is like 11.11 pm

and im not in bed...

haiyoo

soo goodnite peeople (:

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Shidah Yaw

10:21 PM